Ovarian Envy

Well, it seems to be time for Freudian psychoanalysts to rethink their lives. By the way, did you ever notice that the word “anal” is in the term “psychoanalist”? Don’t worry, fellow psychiatrists, I don’t mean that all you say is just s***. But some things are really worthy to be doubted. However, there were some things that psychoanalysis seems to be scared of.

Some time ago a famous psychoanalyst stated that women are fundamentally bisexual. Now, why did he say that about women but not about men? It’s quite simple. At that time, everyone in psychiatry was male. And did he ever consider to admit that – in case his theory would be right – he would be attracted to some men too, maybe even his fellow psychologists? Hell, no! Everyone would curse him as horrible abnormality and think that psychologists make group sex at their meetings. God beware! So it’s just the women that are bisexual because every guy likes to picture lesbian intercourse while analyzing his patients.

But there are even slightly older ideas. Let’s take the good old penis envy. Sure women are jealous of men’s penises because they are what makes men aggressive, dominant and more intelligent so they can rule the world and the women. But it was actually never about men’s sexual organs but rather about misogyny. Why should a woman have been jealous of a man? Rather because of his social possibilities, his freedom and the whole shebang that comes with it. The penis is just the symbol for it which psychoalanystsfound to be appropriate in a sexually suppressed society. And yes, psychoanalysts think of sex all the time so it’s obvious why the picked a penis.
But here comes a huge dilemma. In a – at least theoretically – emancipated society, shouldn’t have men ovarian envy too? Because men are discriminated in one substantial aspect: They can’t give birth to children. Sure, they can go to the army instead and argue whether you are traumatised by a crying baby or exploding grenades doesn’t matter – you can’t sleep well with either. And they are right with the insomnia part – and that’s why I would never go to the army or give birth to a baby! But still, the social meaning of it is totally different. To go to war is to fight for flag and fatherland – but to destroy. To raise a baby is to suffer for future generations and horrible children – but it means to create. So some men might envy that women tend to create while they remain in the social role to destroy.

But now we apply this to the group which is best to reflect society – which are of course we transsexuals. Why is a transsexual man not of any interest to psychoanalysis? Because he is just a woman with a penis envy to them, something obvious and expected. Probably just an all too masculine lesbian with an identity crisis because of her own internal misogyny. Sorry guys, I know you should get more proper attention too but because I’m not a transsexual man it’s not my point of view to write about – I simply lack the experience.
On the other hand, a trans-woman is something absolutely impossible! She shouldn’t exist, because she doesn’t only tamper with the point of view of radical Christians but with all the social expectations that we have. A man with ovarian envy? Please, why? Such weird things don’t exist! Everyone just wants to get the better social role, the one connected with prestige, who would want to be a weak woman then?
We prefer here pretty much to find some way to compensate the existence of something violating against the social order. We can make them ridiculous as some of the intellectually less gifted people with a horrible ego do because they think we question their mere existence.
But the really smart people – the psychologists – found of course another answer for this. Either we’re homosexual or autogynephile – a simple explanation everyone understands. Those who are attracted to men are homosexual men who chose to be women because they don’t want to admit they’re homosexual. And of course because they like wearing satin… On the other hand, how could you blame a trans-woman of being homosexual when she actually is homosexual, meaning, lesbian. Sure, in that case she can’t be homosexual to psychologists, it would just be too easy. She’s autogynephilic, meaning a man sexually attracted to the image of himself as a woman. Yeah, you got it – what label you get depends on sexual orientation – at least the one you would have if you really were the man they think you are.

So we know now that I’m autogynephlie. But well, I wouldn’t say I’m sexually attracted to myself as the woman I am – I just have the self-confidence to know I’m cute (as opposed to many psychologists). I think you already saw that such patterns don’t really work. What homosexual man would undergo SRS just to pass? I mean, being an out homosexual is nowadays more widespread than being an out transsexual so you’re actually less freaky. But this fact seems to be too difficult for many psychologists to get. On the other hand, a lesbian transsexual is male because she is attracted to women like every normal man – doesn’t fully add up too, right? Did you ever ask a lesbian whether she is male? She’d probably kill you when you assume she’s suffering from penis envy. On the other hand I really assume that some of these psychologists must suffer from what I call now ovarian envy because they are jealous of us transsexuals – we manage to mess with their hetero-centric world image. But yeah, there are no known transwomen with ovaries, but as opposed to the psychologists we are talking about, evolution will grant us some when we wait some centuries – not every species is meant to survive and Darwinism works sometimes better than one thinks…

Your psycho-but-logical Liz

~ by Liz on June 28, 2009.